today was a really difficult day because we had games that were very deep and that made me really exhausted. the first part of the day we played a game where there were two groups. one was outside and the other was inside. the group that was inside had to convince the outdoor group to come inside. a simple game. wrong. with analysis it lasted for 2 hours. and the game was mentally very difficult. i was in the indoor group and we lost. but there was also a lot of insulting and stuff like that. so in the analysis 4 people, i was one of them, women as we are, teared up. lucily the analysis helped and everything went back to normal. i even taught a live dance lol.
the other part of the day was not very much funner. we acted out some problem and solutions but it was very deep and difficult again, so the whole day was just hard.
it was also very useful because we learned a lot about ourselves and about others.
after dinner some estonian girls came to my room and we hang out. i gave a long massage to one girl Teli( she is really nice, could be great friends with her) and then we watched silly videos on youtube. then Teli and i started dancing to the "how to dance at a rave" video. it was fun, again. and then she taught me how to dance jumpstyle. was so funny.
boring post today, sorry. but hard day. maybe more interesting tomorrow
and thanks for letting me know you still read this
*hugs*
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Third day in language camp
today i managed to get up earlier. yay. and i got more time to have breakfast and chat. before lunch we had a few wake up games and then a basic camp game where two teams have a flag and the other team has to steal the oponents flag. it was so hot and yet windy and i had to run a lot and fast (i'm not so good at it anymore). but it was fun, because my team was good and our teamwork was great (although we lost).
during lunch one estonian girl really pissed me off. she was complaining what was to come and said she will do no such thing, it's to high and when i told her it's not high at all, she complained that what's the point then. bi-a-tch
after lunch we were in two teams again (different ones) and had to go to different places and there was assignments. that was the most best working team i have ever been in. the assignments went well and everybody was very caring and nobody was left out. bestest feeling ever. at the end we had a trust game where you fell in to peoples hands. i wasn't worried at all, i trusted them ( i have had a bad experience before with it). although in one point, one russian girl fell quite badly(not in the trust game), she couldn't breathe and now she went to the city to see a doctor. it's sad. hope she feels better.
the sun has kissed me. my face is red (was so yesterday) so face is tanning itself :D. and that is good, i'm too white.
and the evening time was for the sauna. mmmm. it was so amzingly good. 95 C was enough to make me sweat. and then some cider and nice company. lovely.
but then it was time to come to our room, and the sauna was by the lake(5 min walk to our hotel) and it was dark. darkness is one of my biggest fobia. lucily i was with my roomy and i tried to not think about it. it almost worked. but then something happened what happens to me very very often and i am sick and tired of it. when we walked the street light we were next to turned off. and you have no idea how much that happens to me.
during the day i though about so many things i wanted to write here but seems like i don't remember hem anymore ergo the short blog. i'll try to make notes tomorrow
pumps valleraa lol
so now i am going to bed. today i will sleep like a baby.
during lunch one estonian girl really pissed me off. she was complaining what was to come and said she will do no such thing, it's to high and when i told her it's not high at all, she complained that what's the point then. bi-a-tch
after lunch we were in two teams again (different ones) and had to go to different places and there was assignments. that was the most best working team i have ever been in. the assignments went well and everybody was very caring and nobody was left out. bestest feeling ever. at the end we had a trust game where you fell in to peoples hands. i wasn't worried at all, i trusted them ( i have had a bad experience before with it). although in one point, one russian girl fell quite badly(not in the trust game), she couldn't breathe and now she went to the city to see a doctor. it's sad. hope she feels better.
the sun has kissed me. my face is red (was so yesterday) so face is tanning itself :D. and that is good, i'm too white.
and the evening time was for the sauna. mmmm. it was so amzingly good. 95 C was enough to make me sweat. and then some cider and nice company. lovely.
but then it was time to come to our room, and the sauna was by the lake(5 min walk to our hotel) and it was dark. darkness is one of my biggest fobia. lucily i was with my roomy and i tried to not think about it. it almost worked. but then something happened what happens to me very very often and i am sick and tired of it. when we walked the street light we were next to turned off. and you have no idea how much that happens to me.
during the day i though about so many things i wanted to write here but seems like i don't remember hem anymore ergo the short blog. i'll try to make notes tomorrow
pumps valleraa lol
so now i am going to bed. today i will sleep like a baby.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Second day in language camp
it's freaking two am and i am tired. today was stange. let me just start from the beginning.
first of all. my blanket here is too short. i'm not the tallest person, but it was difficult to sleep. and it was cold, well, i'm always cold. i was really sleepy when i woke up, it took me a while to get up, but i managed it on time and even had time for breakfast.
i though today would be really easy for me, because i was off the hook, but today tired me more than yesterday, when i was in charge. the beginning of the day was very fun. Lena (a russian girl from my adventure class) arranged (it took me like half a minute to figure out how to write arrange lol) some pretty cool and fun games. then she arranged a photo hunt, which is always fun. got to walk around, talk and have fun in our group. after that three girls made a suggestion to organize the evenings, and all hell broke loose. all women arguing is not a pretty site to see, trust me. it kinda solved, but nobody was happy anymore. (i wasn't involved)
after lunch Lena arranged us search and rescue. there were roles we had to play ( i was a 16 year old who was pregnant). it lasted for ever. i probably walked about 10 km during that time and it was boring as hell for me because our group was very far from the girl we had to look for. and i was lacking of motivation somehow. so i was very passive. and i got so tired. when someone finally found the girl and saved her we all talked about what happened. and it made me even more tired. people started arguing again and it was a bit stupid.
then after dinner me and some other estonian girls and our female teacher talked even more about what happened (to get the emotions out privately). so another analysis. so girls bitched some more and it was time to analyze things with our adventure group. freaking analysis again. then we found out that the girl who is responsible for tomorrow is very sick, but she still wants to continue. so we talked and talked and talked about how Lena did and it was actually a good suprise that she was positive about us and me. usually she takes every opinion as an assault against her, but not today. she even smiled to me and thanked me fr being there for her and so on. it was heart warming.
after that we had to meet with the girls who wanted to do something together in the evening. (and since dinner i had been thinking about my paper, that i have to do). the gave us assignments and i was finally free. it was 20.30 by then. and boy was i tired.
ok, finally got time to do the paper. did i start then, oh no. had to chat and spend time on the internet and even omegle. then it was suddenly 23.oo and i started working. and it wasn't easy to start. but when i got going it wasn't so difficult to do. so with pauses i finally finished the freaking paper and send it, then i discovered that the deadline was 17.00. yay. good for me, because the paper wasn't just mine, it was with a girl. hope the teacher isn't very angry and still takes it in.
now i can finally go to bed to my tiny blanket and freeze some more :D
hope to get up earlier in the morning than i did today. doubt i will happen, but let's see.
i'm still checking this out all the time http://www.digisilm.ee/loomad/amur/pesakaamera.html (don't forget to click play) it's the cutest thing EVER.
a sleepy end today
first of all. my blanket here is too short. i'm not the tallest person, but it was difficult to sleep. and it was cold, well, i'm always cold. i was really sleepy when i woke up, it took me a while to get up, but i managed it on time and even had time for breakfast.
i though today would be really easy for me, because i was off the hook, but today tired me more than yesterday, when i was in charge. the beginning of the day was very fun. Lena (a russian girl from my adventure class) arranged (it took me like half a minute to figure out how to write arrange lol) some pretty cool and fun games. then she arranged a photo hunt, which is always fun. got to walk around, talk and have fun in our group. after that three girls made a suggestion to organize the evenings, and all hell broke loose. all women arguing is not a pretty site to see, trust me. it kinda solved, but nobody was happy anymore. (i wasn't involved)
after lunch Lena arranged us search and rescue. there were roles we had to play ( i was a 16 year old who was pregnant). it lasted for ever. i probably walked about 10 km during that time and it was boring as hell for me because our group was very far from the girl we had to look for. and i was lacking of motivation somehow. so i was very passive. and i got so tired. when someone finally found the girl and saved her we all talked about what happened. and it made me even more tired. people started arguing again and it was a bit stupid.
then after dinner me and some other estonian girls and our female teacher talked even more about what happened (to get the emotions out privately). so another analysis. so girls bitched some more and it was time to analyze things with our adventure group. freaking analysis again. then we found out that the girl who is responsible for tomorrow is very sick, but she still wants to continue. so we talked and talked and talked about how Lena did and it was actually a good suprise that she was positive about us and me. usually she takes every opinion as an assault against her, but not today. she even smiled to me and thanked me fr being there for her and so on. it was heart warming.
after that we had to meet with the girls who wanted to do something together in the evening. (and since dinner i had been thinking about my paper, that i have to do). the gave us assignments and i was finally free. it was 20.30 by then. and boy was i tired.
ok, finally got time to do the paper. did i start then, oh no. had to chat and spend time on the internet and even omegle. then it was suddenly 23.oo and i started working. and it wasn't easy to start. but when i got going it wasn't so difficult to do. so with pauses i finally finished the freaking paper and send it, then i discovered that the deadline was 17.00. yay. good for me, because the paper wasn't just mine, it was with a girl. hope the teacher isn't very angry and still takes it in.
now i can finally go to bed to my tiny blanket and freeze some more :D
hope to get up earlier in the morning than i did today. doubt i will happen, but let's see.
i'm still checking this out all the time http://www.digisilm.ee/loomad/amur/pesakaamera.html (don't forget to click play) it's the cutest thing EVER.
a sleepy end today
Monday, April 19, 2010
First day in language camp
yesterday i finally got some sleep about 4 am. i went to bed about 3 and as usually, i couldn't sleep. I was getting anxious about the camp, because i felt i did my preparations pretty ok.
I got up at 6.40 and it wasn't really difficult to get up, suprisingly. i packed my huge bag and headid off. the bad was really really heavy. i got to the bus and then we drove past my house. so i walked without a reason :D
in the bus (the drive was over an hour) i talked to my adventure teacher Sergei. he is cool guy but a bit weird, and there are some very bad things i know about him, but we do get along very well. so we chatted about the ash and mostly remembered how we went to england on so on.
I was getting really nervous because today was my day to manage. and then i found out i have to share a room with Triin (she is sweet, but at the same time she is very different, klingy and well it's not fun to be with her, and since i am nice to her she always stays with me. and she will do it all week. yay for me :D
the games i organized went pretty well, and there was even some games we didn't have a chance to play, which was good, because i was afraid there is too much time. after lunch i talked about first aid. it was ok, but it was also a bit boring (because of me). i should have used more props, maybe even powerpoint and i should have thought that more through. after the theory we played a game that everybody loved. that made me happy. and then it was time to practice first aid. me and this other girl (Teli, she is nice) acted like one of as is unconsious and the other is in shock and screams. there was lots of laughs, people liked it which made me happy again :)
now i'm in my room and in 13 minutes we'll have a meeting (the organizing group). there is internet here yay, but i can't be in bed and have to sit in a hard chair :D. ok it's not that bad.
I have a paper to write for tomorrow so i have to do it today. i have plenty of time, but i'm starting to get sleepy. i think i'll take a shower after the meeting and start working.
oh yes, i am having the worst bad hair day ever. yesterday i tried to do my hair like the hairdresser did, but it's all gone today. i'm gonna wash my hair and try again. short hair are a pain in the ass :D.
there are no guys here (besides Sergei). not that i need them :D but it's usually more fun with them. on the other hand i know the russian guys in our school. maybe it's best that they are not here.
ok. gonna go now. it feels good, because i have no obligations but to attend this camp anymore. good times :P
over and out
I got up at 6.40 and it wasn't really difficult to get up, suprisingly. i packed my huge bag and headid off. the bad was really really heavy. i got to the bus and then we drove past my house. so i walked without a reason :D
in the bus (the drive was over an hour) i talked to my adventure teacher Sergei. he is cool guy but a bit weird, and there are some very bad things i know about him, but we do get along very well. so we chatted about the ash and mostly remembered how we went to england on so on.
I was getting really nervous because today was my day to manage. and then i found out i have to share a room with Triin (she is sweet, but at the same time she is very different, klingy and well it's not fun to be with her, and since i am nice to her she always stays with me. and she will do it all week. yay for me :D
the games i organized went pretty well, and there was even some games we didn't have a chance to play, which was good, because i was afraid there is too much time. after lunch i talked about first aid. it was ok, but it was also a bit boring (because of me). i should have used more props, maybe even powerpoint and i should have thought that more through. after the theory we played a game that everybody loved. that made me happy. and then it was time to practice first aid. me and this other girl (Teli, she is nice) acted like one of as is unconsious and the other is in shock and screams. there was lots of laughs, people liked it which made me happy again :)
now i'm in my room and in 13 minutes we'll have a meeting (the organizing group). there is internet here yay, but i can't be in bed and have to sit in a hard chair :D. ok it's not that bad.
I have a paper to write for tomorrow so i have to do it today. i have plenty of time, but i'm starting to get sleepy. i think i'll take a shower after the meeting and start working.
oh yes, i am having the worst bad hair day ever. yesterday i tried to do my hair like the hairdresser did, but it's all gone today. i'm gonna wash my hair and try again. short hair are a pain in the ass :D.
there are no guys here (besides Sergei). not that i need them :D but it's usually more fun with them. on the other hand i know the russian guys in our school. maybe it's best that they are not here.
ok. gonna go now. it feels good, because i have no obligations but to attend this camp anymore. good times :P
over and out
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Here I go
today i lost a friend. hopefully not for ever. i understand the reasons, but it's sill hard to cope.
tomorrow i have to go to a language camp, with people who i don't exactly love. i will manage fine, but i miss Siret, my friend who was always with me when we had things like this. she is in usa now, and i am really happy for her. today i finally got the first message from her, since she went there. she is doing great and loving every moment there. she also fell in love with NYC. god i'm jealous, i want to go there.
so, right now i finished my homework and preparation for the camp. i have to manage a whole day for the russians as a part of my adventure practice. i am going to do some icebreakers and after lunch i am going to teach first aid and the fun part about that is what comes after learning. i am going to simulate accidents so they can practise their knowledge. there will be screaming (suprisingly i am good at it) and fake blood and everything. should be fun.
I am really happy that my day is the first, because after that i can rest and just participate in other activities.
oh yes, i have a paper to write about arabia. due tomorrow. and that is why i am bringing my laptop with me (normally i wouldn't) hoping that there is internet there (it's estonia). and i am also planning to keep a diary there, so i can write here with more detail.
I am usually bad at blogging, but i want this blog to live. so i will do my best to write here every day.
hmm, i should go to bed now. after all it is 02.44 and i have to get up at 6.30 to pack my bag and head to camp. i should have done it today (packing), but no, always last minute.
Next post is going to be either tomorrow (if there is internet there and if there isn't i'm scrued) or in friday
I'm out
tomorrow i have to go to a language camp, with people who i don't exactly love. i will manage fine, but i miss Siret, my friend who was always with me when we had things like this. she is in usa now, and i am really happy for her. today i finally got the first message from her, since she went there. she is doing great and loving every moment there. she also fell in love with NYC. god i'm jealous, i want to go there.
so, right now i finished my homework and preparation for the camp. i have to manage a whole day for the russians as a part of my adventure practice. i am going to do some icebreakers and after lunch i am going to teach first aid and the fun part about that is what comes after learning. i am going to simulate accidents so they can practise their knowledge. there will be screaming (suprisingly i am good at it) and fake blood and everything. should be fun.
I am really happy that my day is the first, because after that i can rest and just participate in other activities.
oh yes, i have a paper to write about arabia. due tomorrow. and that is why i am bringing my laptop with me (normally i wouldn't) hoping that there is internet there (it's estonia). and i am also planning to keep a diary there, so i can write here with more detail.
I am usually bad at blogging, but i want this blog to live. so i will do my best to write here every day.
hmm, i should go to bed now. after all it is 02.44 and i have to get up at 6.30 to pack my bag and head to camp. i should have done it today (packing), but no, always last minute.
Next post is going to be either tomorrow (if there is internet there and if there isn't i'm scrued) or in friday
I'm out
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